Whoa!!

Sorry guys, I haven't had time to blog lately. I have way way too much going on in my life. Most of it not good. I don't even read blogs daily anymore, sometimes only 2 times a week I make it here.

My health isn't doing so good. I have had a lot done in a very very short amount of time. I am not sure if i mentioned my hospital visits the last time i posted but I had 2 in the same weekend. One was 12 ish hours the other like 22. I have been seeing a Dr. that has gotten things done. Today I saw a specialist. If what he thinks is true I have a rare, incurable disease/condition due to my surgery last year. One that could put me on TPN and need a liver transplant down the road. I don't want to speculate as we have to do some specialized testing so he can see how much of my small bowel is actually left. I won't know for a few months, he needs to get ALL my results/tests from other hospitals. This is the fastest I have gotten in to see a specialist.....

I also did a Upper GI/colonoscopy. Colonoscopy was OK which I knew it would be because it shows nothing of the small intestine. Upper GI shows stomach/esophagus issues again ffs. I dealt with that for 8 years and again for the last couple but it is getting worse. I am on beta blocker and also some powder crap that i start tonight because my body is producing far more acid than I can absorb due to the small intestine.

I also lost another 4 pounds since the 9th which brings my clinical total to 57 pounds lost. 37 of that since my surgery.

Lots of other negative crap going on in my personal life too. As much as I have it together, it is falling apart. It could be worse though. I am still dating someone, just not the one I was. I still talk to him daily but there were some major things that were in the way. We are friends. The guy I am dating now I have been seeing for 6 weeks now. I am not sure what the future has in store, way way too early to tell but I am learning I need to let go of a few things. He is younger than me so not where I am at BUT he is really nice. He doesn't need to be perfect. My car got broken into a couple weeks ago while I was at a concert and he was there for me. He came downtown and then home with me for the weekend because I needed him (will explain more another time). Those types of things are HUGE for me. I don't need flowers and chocolate, I'd have someone that is there for me....

I have to find a new home for my best friend.....my beloved dog. I can't even type that without crying. I would be homeless before giving him up but I can't be jobless. Me being gone so much is taking it's toll on him. He is sooooo sad. When he goes out to pee he goes to my car (on his cable) and stands beside it. He figures if he does that and I am leaving I will take him with me. I am STILL in camp but I have been going home every night for 3 weeks now. My days are long though, so i am gone from home for 13 hours a day. It's just not fair to him. My heart is broken.

My mexico trip is coming up though, and just what I need. Unfortunately a whole boatload of medications is coming with me. I could not even get the twinrx shot because my body will not absorb it and with auto immune it does nothing. Bleh. I am very careful with what I eat and I eat very little but still.

If anyone reads this......keep me in your thoughts. I may not be able to update much for the next few weeks.

On another note I HAVE AN ADULT SON. Holy crap. He turned 18 a week ago. G & I took him out last weekend. He really enjoyed that and was really happy that my ex came too. We went to a movie of his choosing, and had pizza at our favorite place. I then got to spend some time with my nephew who is HUGE now. 13 pounds at 8 weeks!!!

I hope everyone is doing well and to my american friends........Happy Thanksgiving!!