Today we had our christmas lunch, complete with alcohol, draws & a small bonus that i did not know about (only been there a few months). I mentioned working on a farm, well one of our vendors came bearing gifts today as well, he gave me n the other office girl 3 roses in a vase, a 40oz(1litre for those of you in the usa) of bailey's ($45 in stores with tax) plus chocolates which i was so not expecting. The boss gave us lunch, free booze, sweater, 50$ plus did some draws, not everyone got a prize but i won $50 there too so i bought a 40 of crown royal. Gotta love free booze, i wanted a bottle and now i don't have to pay for it lol. I ended up having to make 2 trips from the car i had so much stuff lol.
We got off @ noon today and we don't go back till tuesday, tomorrow & monday are paid days off! I can't wait to sleep in more than a day in a row lol. I need to catch up. Plus the hubby is off for 3 days as well, will be nice to have the extra day with him, he usually is off for 3 days every 2nd weekend but i work the fridays so we only have 2 days off together. the extra day will be nice just to chill with him. I am going to take him out for lunch with my bonus & he will take us out for supper in the city to his fav place with his bonus. This way we both get something from it all lol.
Today is 2 weeks since i last had a cigarette, it is getting harder instead of easier, i have wanted one so bad the last couple days and have managed to not have one, i am worried though that i will break down & have 1 one of these days, not cause i want it, but to make this feeling go away. I remember last year when i tried to quit the first week was easy, after that very hard, i made it 30 days and i caved. I remember the sensation in my chest of needing one still just as strong at day 30 as it was day 10. They say it is out of your system after 21 days but that is a crock of shit. My bf was sooooo disappointed when he seen i caved that he left my grams house n went n sat in the car, he has no clue how hard it is, but he really wants me to quit. he enjoys his alcohol (not an alcoholic by any means) but i would like to see him never touch a drink again while watching everyone around him drinking. VERY VERY hard, i hear people say well i smoked for 40 years and i quit cold turkey so you can too. NOT TRUE, i smoked for 18, was a pack a day smoker, have 0 willpower for anything but i am trying. Every person is different and just because it worked for you does not mean it works for me. Surprisingly work is the easiest, even though i see them smoke all the time usually i can get through the day fine where before i would have a smoke every hour on the hour. I find i am not needing my hard candies as bad there, i should have brought them home, i forgot.
The last couple weeks no one has been posting :( it sucks, i love reading blogs. I understand people are busy but i still miss the stories. I may post this weekend but i definately won't be posting every day, can't even say i will tomorrow, i don't get on when the hubby is home, it is a rule, no computer unless we both want to go on for a bit, so that we spend time together.
Merry Christmas :) have a safe holiday season.
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